lo-he body-every, 
its been very loooooooooongggg time since i wrote in this xanga blogging site. in fact, i never get to blog for a lo0o0o0oonng time even in other blogging sites as well...
weeeelll... anyway, here i am... bugging you to read me... ahihihihi...
its just that i have been very busy... but hope you forgive me...  . well, if this blog has been long overdue, might as well put something worthwhile to read, no? 
anyway, i want to share how God is really good! maybe you know of this already, but still let me share to you... (for the sakes of the peoples who don't know my life story... drama!  )
you see when i was young, i had an ovarian cyst --- a tumor in my ovary. good thing was that it was benign but was still oh-sooooo painful. because it was very painful in my tummy, i had to let my doctor cut it out, leaving me with one ovary.
being scared, my doctor had to run tests and regular check ups to study my ovary and my uterus in order to make sure the tumor will not affect my last and remaining ovary.
they found out that i had an infantile uterus. an infantile uterus is a description of a uterus which means having likeness of an infant uterus -- in short my uterus is like that of a kid's. in other shorter words, i will have a hard time bearing children. in fact, my doctor said that i will have a 20% chance to bear children but still that percentage is low... it would be nice if it were normal... but anyway back to the story...
my mother was brokenhearted when she had known of this... so in order for me not to regret or cry in the future, she made me promise that i will look for a husband that will love me no matter what even if i can't bear kids or is open to adopt kids if we decide to have kids... i, looking at this advise as wise, i took it...
now, when i met my husband, charlie(~li kun as i fondly call him, he was not my husband that time yet), i told him the truth about me. i didn't hide from him the facts about myself... we were in the "getting to know" stage, so i told him all the things he needs to know about me... its like i laid down the cards, take it or leave it that kind of stuff... but instead of being repulsed by me (or like some other men's negative reaction), he understood and still pursued me with all good intention.
i know it was hard on his part too because i know and understand that he wants to have a child of his own. but inspite of knowing my disadvantage, he still pursued me and still married me.. (and now we are married... yaaaahoooooooooo!  ahhhhnnnyway..)
now as married people, it is normal to...  . ahihihihihi... yeah... we tried to have kids... until a year and a half passed by... then i had bleeding spots... then i began to feel nauseous... i was wondering why and how come i have these symptoms??? i asked myself so many many questions like is this normal???? what's happening to me??? is my tumor back??? i began to worry... i prayed so hard to God that everything will be fine and dandy.
but my husband, still positive, told me to pray and look at the positive side and to trust God. he won't let me think of evil thoughts... he listened to my worries and hushed them with his securing hug and just kept telling me to trust God.
now, he remembered that a friend of ours gave us an expired pregnancy test kit. he let me have it to test myself in case i was pregnant...
hellooooo... how could i be pregnant that i have a very slim chance of becoming one and we were very busy and had a hectic schedule that time too... but he insisted still... so ok...  submissive eh... (ahihihi) wala man pud mawala sa akoa...
so yun, i took the test... waited for 5 minutes and to my surprise (sa ka super surprised nako, hapit mahulog eyes ko!) it turned out to be positive... my husband smiled a very big smile and we were both laughing until we had tears coming out from our eyes (not crying tears but tears because of so much happy laughing)
but i am still skeptical... so we bought another test kit... this time its not expired... when we got home, we took the test and still the result was positive.
we were happy -- so happy we went to my parents house to let them see for themselves the test kit with a (+) sign... all of the people in my house were happy... even my doctor was happy and surprised but happy nonetheless.
now, i am in my 6th month (going 7) and we just had our ultrasound this month and guess what, we have a girl! she is sooooo cute... i saw her heart beat in the machine.... and she danced too (upping and downing the hands like robot dance  )...
the end... we are all happppiiiieeeee
its so wonderful if you have the backing up of good friends, understanding family (both inlaws and biological alike and church family too ), a wonderful husband-friend-lover-teacher-guide and a great and awesome Creator who won't leave you in times of confusion and distress but instead gives you the light and the right thing at the right time...
i hope that through this, it will leave a glimpse of hope in life and light feeling in the inside your hearts-- the warm and fuzzies feeling as you go on about your day
that's all talk to you soon mwah!
loving you all and will be praying and rootin' for all of you!
love, isis, charles and baby (name nya si teatephi isis) | 
